I think I have written this blog at least 15 times in my head, but the fear of judgment seems to keep me quiet. Where do I begin? Do I tell you that we're all beautiful in our own way, even if I don't always feel beautiful? Do I tell you I feel uncomfortable in my own skin?
These pictures were taken exactly two years apart, in the exact same outfit. Frankly, I wasn't happy with how I looked in either picture. Yet, now in this new skin what I wouldn't give to go back. Isn't it interesting that we often yearn for things when in the moment we didn't appreciate them enough?
I know that I live in a privileged body and I'm thankful for all it does for me, but I think I will always think there is room for improvement. After all the fiascos that were 2020 I finally decided it was time to get back on track. I have started meal prepping and working out thanks to Lina, but there is still a long way to go. I am so thankful to have someone to keep me accountable, I hope that if you notice I stop going to the gym or anything you choose to keep me accountable. If you need someone to keep you accountable I'm happy to be there for you.
That said, I'm by no means perfect and I don't intended to completely deprive myself of the things I love --- chocolate. There are some things that I am willing to budge on like portion pancakes, brown rice, and giving up Starbucks; but I love chocolate entirely too much. I don't want to call this a diet, it's simply a conscious decision about making healthier choices for my mind and body.
I hope that a year from now I can write a blog and tell you that I am happy with my body and that my mental health has improves ten fold. The girl on the left was unhappy and working out and starving herself because everyone else told her she wasn't skinny enough, the one on the right is happy but not necessarily the healthiest.
I hope that this year you learn to love your body and treat it with love and respect. I'll take you all along the journey and cheer you on whatever journey you choose.
I am on the same page. After my yearly visit to the gynicologist, and a few years over the past year and 15 extra lbs., my sweet doctor said, in a soothing voice, welllll...Kathleen, you are in relatively good health, so just take it slow and live more healthfully. How same that sounds. So I decided to try to stay sane and live thinner and more healthful. So far so good. Good luck to all in my same "boat"! Kathleen 72 but hopefully better by June birthday for 73.